Friday, June 20, 2008

Meh.

Sorry for the lack of posting lately, I just haven't had much to type. Life is fine, work is fine, everything is just...fine. Nothing is really wrong, but I think I'm a little down right now. Since the beginning of May, 2 sets of our favorite married couples (Nathan & Taylor and Richard & Lindsey) have moved away and by the end of next week two more will be leaving (Evan & Jamie, Devin & Courtney). I just feel like everyone comes to Utah for school, gets married and graduates, and then leaves Utah for a new adventure in another state. Everyone except for me and Ben, that is. While everyone is moving away for fun adventures Ben and I are staying in Utah. Meh. And it's not that I hate Utah, I just hate seeing so many of my friends leave.

Also, I feel like a Columbus kid who never left Columbus after high school graduation. I'm just a non-Utahn who never left Utah after graduation. Like I should leave, because that's where life begins- in your new home outside of your college town.

Not that I should even be griping right now- Ben isn't even finished with school, so the outside of Utah adventure wouldn't even be able to begin until next year. The hard part for me is knowing that even when Ben graduates we are going to be staying in Utah.

So double whammy for me right now: staying in Utah forever AND watching all the amigos leave for greener pastures.

Ugh, I'm so struggling with this idea right now. I don't know where I want to be, but the idea of staying here forever while watching all our friends leave is just too much to handle sometimes.

ps- sorry for the "woe is me" post.

10 comments:

Angela and Mike said...

How come you know you guys are going to be staying in Utah? I know how you feel...I liked it for school but was ready to get out afterwards :( I'm sorry all your friends are moving away.

The Clems said...

Im here! I know we aren't super close, but I am lonely too! We live right across the street from each other. If you ever want to hang out, let me know!! Hang in there! I miss Tay and Nate too!

Terri said...

I know how you feel! I have been very contemplative lately... I have NO family close. (Meaning children or grandchildren) This isn't the way it's supposed to be. At least we should all be within a couple of hours of each other. Life is about family and relationships. So Come HOOOOMMMME after Ben graduates... if not back to Columbus- how about somewhere with a couple hour's drive? You DO have options, you know. (Sorry if I'm being whiney... I just miss my children and grandchildren.

Taylor Kowallis said...

I miss you so much!!! I cant wait for you guys to come to Vegas next month! You dont know how exciting that sounds to me!!! I miss my best friend!

Lindsay Marie said...

Wow! I like the look of the new blog (i have been reading from my google reader so I haven't been actually looking at the blog... but it looks super cute.)

Chin up my dear... cause you could move a way and leave all your friends and find out that you live in hicksville. With out a Nordstrom. Or an Apple store. Or Cafe Rio. Please don't make me go on. Life can be a bi-otch anywhere:)

And, think of all the people who will be ETERNALLY coming to UT for various reasons over the years. I'm sure you will be able to keep in better contact than most.

I miss your frowny face today and I wish I could torture you with some Frank Sinatra or Cake. Haha, see? It totally could be so much worse.

Sarah & Ty said...

I've been wondering where you've been my friend. down in the dumps, huh?? The Utah blues. It is a weird realization to find out you figure out Utah is more than temporary. Yeah, we're here for a long time too! But we've been lucky to make some amazing friends up here. I think your friend Lindsay is onto something though. Utah is good central ground since it's a mormon hub. in the 8 years I've been here, I've always felt surrounded by so many good friends who visit for the MTC, BYU/UVU, general conference, etc. Maybe you can convince your parents to move out here!!

sarahbclark! said...

i'm back!! we have internet! oh happy day!

come to chicago! it's fun here and we'd have our own little sister's club! and do lots of cool shopping!

Suzie Soda said...

Crissy...I read your blog....and then your mom's comments. It seems all our lives we are continually adjusting to changes...and mostly the ones where relationships are involved. It is hard to get left behind when you are young...and then when you are old and all your kids leave you. So I guess we all have to make the most of whatever life gives us....reach out to new people continually. Life can change on a dime. You may not end up in Utah forever. I have lived so many places and I would have never guessed i would be in Virginia. I thought I would marry someone from California
and live there all my life. And all my changes have been great and I have met some wonderful people.
Maybe you just need to take a trip. Come visit us down here in the south...Lindsay is here for a few more weeks.....Short Pump Town Center is calling your name. H&M makes every young girl feel better,
If that is not possible, I know next week will be better. Good Luck...I am sending positive vibes your way. xoxoxoxoxox suz

allison said...

i like that you live here. especially because you get all the crapy cases.

stacey said...

Oh Chrissi I feel your pain. We chose to move to Utah, but it's still no fun. I've been feeling a little blue since we moved here. Too bad we don't live closer to each other or we could go drown our sorrows shopping.